Not too serious..

            My somewhat ironic sense of humor is back.. (if it counts as humor). Hopefully one day I'll be able to look back at this blog and be able to laugh at myself. In a way I hope this post is going to effectively ruin any of my chances of getting married..

            First off, I am atypical in some ways. So what I write may count as irrational. Apologies in advance.

             They do say first impression is the best impression. I suppose people do judge us by our first impressions. But I don't like it. I get sorely disappointed when someone on their first impression is all nice..and once you get to know them, they are an entirely different person altogether. My brain just doesn't get it. In my part, I don't try to put up a mask when it comes to people. So even if I get called a nerd, or a weirdo.. I don't mind..since I never want people to have a wrong high opinion of me. I'd probably be the worst person in politics and marketing..

            I ended up on a matrimony site..and a few things felt really odd for me..

1. Photographs:  The photos are either taken back when people aren't fat, (good ol' college days), or just taken in a really saintly pose.. Saint here in this site has a profile pic in Facebook with a bottle of Tequila..

moral: Either be smart enough to lie, or be smart enough to change the privacy settings in your Facebook profiles.

2. Religiousness:  I'm not going to debate about legalism/traditionalism vs gospel of grace.. Nothing..
I'd actually appreciate the honesty of some people..who are brave enough to set it as 'Sunday church goer, Average Christian' etc..

 I spotted a few acquaintances..and to my knowledge they've almost never bothered to turn up at church except Christmases and Easters.. the so called 'God fearing' families.. the domestic violence that goes inside..think almost the entire neighborhood knows about it.

  Although I've noticed, whatever be the religiousness of the guy's family.. the girl they're looking for always has to be God fearing..and very religious..

3. Hobbies:  In my personal opinion, listening to music doesn't count as a hobby.. till now I haven't found a person who has said 'I hate listening to music'.. and chores like watering the house plants becomes  'gardening'.. cutting up onions becomes 'cooking' ...

Conclusion: This post is immature.. and I don't know how girls usually project themselves. But I was stunned by the real life description of some people and this biodata description.. how vast the gap was.. hence the post. 

Idiot

    I'm sort of into Dostoevsky at the moment. So that explains away the title.
Introduction aside, it feels great to be back. And looking at my blog, I'm amazed at how things have changed over time, how I have changed over time. I've surprised myself on quite a few occasions, I've let myself down on even more. Apparent truths became lies and apparent lies became truths. At the end of it all, I can only think of a quote by Socrates. "There are only two kinds of people in this world- the Wise, who think they are fools and the fools, who think they are wise". All that I know is that I don't know much at all.
 
     My first post when I started this blog was about the marriage market. And now I am back to square one. That was a time when I was just a silent spectator. I used to think I'd somehow be different. I hoped my life wouldn't be just another statistic, another blip on the radar.
 
     I was wrong. To be more accurate, I'm realizing I might be wrong. I'm officially on the market. I might as well as be a gadget with a price tag and a bunch of specifications and that wouldn't make an inch of a difference given the current situation.
 
     This is India and I can't fight against it.. trying to be an idealist. It will just be chasing mirages in the desert.

       I'd probably be able to write an essay on the evils of dowry and caste system and domestic abuse etc etc... but then, once I'm into the whole system, i realize there is not much I can do about it.
       This is just going to be the beginning.. apparently. I'm still waiting to see how things pan out.
        I rambled.. now I see it. But I wanted to post this because I want to post part three.. what the outcome of this whole thing would be.
        Funny, how things turn out.